I haven't had the mood to post anything, not that anyone is reading this crap i write. Well...doesn't matter...I'll keep writing.
I am writing this on the verge of psychological breakdown and frankly I don't even know how to cope with this shit this time. Just felt like putting my thoughts in black and white.
What does a person do when he has lost all his drive to keep going. Push on you say...easier said than done. You do your best to be the person you're supposed to be, just to keep a little happiness in your existence and for all the shit you've done put down...you don't get jack. Even when you think you have the strenght to go on, it's getting harder each time to pick up the pieces. I have never, ever hit a brick wall so hard in my current lifespan.
It's like destiny is just waiting for you to calm down and then takes away the last piece of joy...I'm sorry
she pulls it right from your hands...the harder the grip - the worse is the pain.
And now I'm trying to convince myself...that everything is going to turn out for the best...that all will end well. BULLSHIT!!!
Well...I guess this is all that I had the need to say. It was basically that I have hit the point in my life where I don't want to live anymore...again.